jeleek,so sorry, so hard to say the word ‘ganteng’, ‘cakep’, tapi rapi kok.oke.

pinteeeer,emmm cerdas lebih tepatnya, pengetahuannya buanyaaak,suka baca.padahal kayana g pernah blajar lhoo.paling cuma smangat pas awalna aja, paling lama cuma 2 minggu, biz tu pasti uda bosen.

sabar, nggak pernah bisa marah.klo uda sampe marah, brarti uda keterlaluan.tapi tega, iya banget.

moody, klo lagi nggak mood ngapa-ngapain, jangan harap ada yang bisa bilangin dy buwat ngelakuin itu. mulut sampe bebusa, juga g mungkin di dengerin, bisaaaaaa aja bikin alasanna.

unpredict,suka ngubah keputusan di last minute.

diemm, nggak suka mbagi masalahna,padahal klo ada yang crita ke dy,suka ngasih solusi.

suka diskonan,lebih seneng alfamart daripada indomart

narsis parah..no comment bout this

pertimbangan tingkat tinggi apalagi masalah harga,nggak mungkin ngelakuin sesuatu tanpa ada feedback buat dy.

beda, cara pikirna beda dari kebanyakan orang, itu yang bikin dy unpredict, bikin penasaran.hehe..

suka kucing,ada kucing enak2 tidur, dideketin,dikagetin..nakal

manja,tapi nggak lebih manja dari aku.hehe…

gampang excited sama sesuatu,seneng aja liat ekspresi excitedna,trus bilang ‘heu?’..lucu..:)

suka lupa, tanggal, jalan, nama, duw paraaaah..

nggak suka di kekang, ya moody tu, klo lg nggak mo, yawda ubahlah moodna dwulu biar mau,klo uda mo, nggak ada yang nyuruh, dy tau apa yang harus dilakuin…

ngangenin, kangen sama pandangan itu,kangen sama suara itu, kangen sama punggung itu,kangen sama jari-jari itu,(yang ada ‘kotoran g bisa ilang’ di jari tengah tangan kiri),yang kulitna sensitif klo kena goresan,kangen bedebat denganna cuma gara-gara tata bahasa yang salah,kangen sama cara jalanna, cara dudukna, cara bicarana…smuana…

jeleek, maafin aku yang nggak pernah bisa ngertiin kamu, masih suka ngganggu kamu,maksa denger critaku, nuntut kamu macem-macem padahal aku nggak pernah berhak untuk itu…so sowryy..

happy 3rd anniversary for both of you….

Leaving on a jetplane by Chantal Kreviazuk

I’m … I’m …

All my bags are packed, I’m ready to go
I’m standin’ here outside your door
I hate to wake you up to say goodbye

But the dawn is breakin’, it’s early morn
The taxi’s waitin’, he’s blowin’ his horn
Already I’m so lonesome I could die

So kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that you’ll wait for me
Hold me like you’ll never let me go

‘Cause I’m leaving on a jet plane
I don’t know when I’ll be back again
Oh, babe, I hate to go

I’m …

There’s so many times I’ve let you down
So many times I’ve played around
I’ll tell you now, they don’t mean a thing

Every place I go, I think of you
Every song I sing, I sing for you
When I come back I’ll wear your wedding ring

So kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that you’ll wait for me
Hold me like you’ll never let me go

‘Cause I’m leaving on a jet plane
I don’t know when I’ll be back again
Oh, babe, I hate to go

Now the time has come to leave you
One more time, oh, let me kiss you
And close your eyes and I’ll be on my way

Dream about the days to come
When I won’t have to leave alone
About the times that I won’t have to say …

Oh, kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that you’ll wait for me
Hold me like you’ll never let me go

‘Cause I’m leaving on a jet plane
I don’t know when I’ll be back again
Oh, babe, I hate to go

And I’m leaving on a jet plane
I don’t know when I’ll be back again
Oh, babe, I hate to go

But I’m leaving on a jet plane
(Ah ah ah ah)
Leaving on a jet plane
(Ah ah ah ah)
Leaving on a jet plane
(Ah ah ah ah)
Leaving on a jet plane
(Ah ah ah ah)
Leaving on a jet plane
(Ah ah ah ah)
Leaving on a jet plane
(Ah ah ah ah)
Leaving on a jet plane
(Ah ah ah ah)
Leaving on a jet plane
(Ah ah ah ah)
(Leaving) On a jet plane

———————

whom this song for?

kebetulan temen-temen kerjaku orang semarang smua

kebetulan pimpinanku orang pati

kebetulan kebagian laptop dari kantor merk COMPAQ

kebetulan pas nge-post ini, ada orang lewat menyebut namana ‘****’

(dari skian banyak nama cowok, knapa nama bapak ituw sama kaya orang jelek ituwww ya?)

ada apa ini?

waa..it has been 2 months from latest post. emm..just wanna say, everything is undercontrolled, and thanks god for his bless. for a new experience of everything, a graduation, a new job, a new living, new friends, new knowledge, new habits and another ’da NEW’ things..

it feels suck when somebody lie to you, but it getting worse when somebody already know the truth but never tell you.

it feels suck when somebody reject you, but it getting worse when somebody give you a fake hope and never say yes.

it feel sucks when somebody you love cheat on you, but it getting worse when somebody you love ask you to cheat on his/her couple

enak rasanya klo punya pelarian,waktu lagi dapet bete,bingung ato suasana apalah yang nggak enak. apalagi klo sasarannya berupa manusia yang sayang ma kita.yang rela ngelakuin apa aja buwat kita.nggak cuma ituw, dia juga pinter, lucu, trus ‘nurut’. bisa bikin ketawa. klo ditanya, bisa jawab. dan bisa diapain aja. jangan repot-repot mikir perasaannya.klo uda puas, tinggal aja. dan cukup bilang ‘maaf’. selesai.
klo butuh lagi, tinggal dateng kaya’ gpernah terjadi apa-apa-manfaatin-uda puas-tinggal-maaf-selesai…

heehhh..finally, i passed through this november..
somehow day by day of this month feel so slow to been through..
all tears, pain,pretend,surrender,furries,trying to be tough,to be blamed for everything that someone couldn’t do,but still i feel guilty for that and such thing make it harder to been through..
and that’s enough..it’s time to move on..

say bye to pain and tears, take care ya kaliaaan disanaaaa..:)

Dear, I fear we’re facing a problem
You love me no longer, I know
And maybe there is nothing
that I can do to make you do

Mama tells me I shouldn’t bother
That I ought just stick to another man
A man that surely deserves me
But I think you do

So I cry, I pray, and I beg

Love me, love me
Say that you love me
Fool, fool me
Go on and fool me
Love me, love me
Pretend that you love me
Leave me, leave me
Just say that you need me

So I cry, and I beg for you to

Love me, love me
Say that you love me
Leave me, leave me
Just say that you need me
I can’t care about anything but you

Lately I have desperately pondered
Spent my nights awake an I wonder
What I could have done in another way
To make you stay

Reason will not lead to solution
I will end up lost in confusion
I don’t care if you really care
As long as you don’t go

So I cry, I pray, and I beg

Love me, love me
Say that you love me
Fool, fool me
Go on and fool me
Love me, love me
Pretend that you love me
Leave me, leave me
Just say that you need me

So I cry, and I beg for you to

Love me, love me
Say that you love me
Leave me, leave me
Just say that you need me
I can’t care about anything but you (anything but you)

Love me, love me (say that you love me)
Fool, fool me (go on and fool me)
Love me, love me (I know that you need me)
I can’t care about anything but you

—-by The cardigans—-

i won’t do this..!!

i’ve got tell him the ‘big’ reasons, but i forgot to say the ’small’.yaa, i always have little reason that out of his mind. i’m sure he did it unpurposely.but it’s mean alot for me.

i told him, that i’ve planned this since tuesday-thursday noon. 3 days he left me to answer ‘the duty call’ from the owner and give me many times to thought this relationship. and i turning to be evil on thursday afternoon. yes, i did it purposely. i tried tobe someone that he hate. then i could see that he tried hard to ‘melted’ my emotion.i knew it. i appreciated it with postponed my plan.and give he more times to show that he loves me more. until saturday i still confused but i tried to just did everything normally. but when i saw the picture of her beside his family picture….

it changed everything.i knew that it’s that time.it mean a lot for me. i did. where is my ‘fish picture’ in the floor? where is my ‘cat ‘miiko’ picture ‘ on the remote? i’m sure he have throw them to dust bin. i knew that they are just unusefull picture.it just made his room dirty or everything. but they are represented me.and he did it because he didn’ t want her to know about this. but why he put the picture of her in some place that everybody will see it? especially for me?

i knew that it’s so silly, so childish. and i could just tell him.but i don’t authorized for that. she is the ‘owner’. and i’m just the ‘borrower’.i couldn’t do that.and of course he has full right to decorate his own room. i’m sure it will hurt his heart too if i asked that. it’s enough that only me that hurt. and i didn’t want to hurt him.

yaah, but everything has done…

i expect nothing from this, just blow up my mind…

i don’t expect this relationship break up as fast as this time.i know that i asked him too much.and i shouldn’t do this.i believe he has done the best effort, struggle hard, sacrificed many thing to make it happen, but i never say enough for him. i don’t appreciate him.actually i’m so regret this. i should more patience, more understand and more appreciate him.but it’s too late.i just think that i feel hurt alone, and he doesn’t.i always think bad about him.but who doesn’t?everybody always think the worst.and i don’t want that happen to me.i’m too affraid to receive the risk by myself.i’m affraid that he lie to me. and i have defend from this.just it.
even so, i am so thankful for receive his special treatment to me, his kindliness, his patience and everything he has done for me, and of course the chance he gives to put me in some spaces of his heart.thank you..i’m so lucky for that.i appreciate it this much (while i’m stretching my arms, he knows what i mean).and i’m sure that is the only one chances he gives for me.i know too late to say thank you, he said it’s enough.i just want he knows that everytimes i spend my time with him, that is the best part of my life.and i really feel so lucky ever ‘have’ him even just a half or a quarter or the smallest part of him and maybe to be his ’special person’.i do.
i do still love him,i never change my mind about this, i always feel he’s the right one for me, i never doubt it, but i really can’t in this time.not in this condition.not in his status right now.
then i realize that love will find the way, if i and he are fated together, then i and he will.and once again not this time, maybe someday in the better condition, right status, and the other right and better condition.